So I'm still on a roll and haven't quit my meds... Gold star for me. But damn if I don't have days where I think about it. The whole being a guinea pig thing and trying 973 different combinations of drugs gets old after a while.
As of Tuesday, I'm on a new combination. The Happiness Cocktail that is being prescribed to me still includes wellbutrin, a dose at which I'm maxed out on; xanax as needed; lithium, and now another antidepressent called Vybriid.
I feel like I should be mixing all of those in a smoothie or something... it's just weird. I hate taking all these pills, but the thought of not taking them scares me to death... I can't risk a manic or a super depressed phase...In a perfect world if the scale was 1 to 10, 1 being suicidal and 10 being whoa manic, I would want to be a 6. I'd like to be balanced with a hint of mania...does that make sense?
Oh well we'll see how this one turns out and go from there...one pill at a time.
