My xanax usage has increased, but still isn't more than a few days a week that I have to take it in order to cope. I started a new job over a month ago, so I'll have insurance by September 1st which means then I'll be able to get back on all the meds I'm supposed to be on.
Ive been maintaining with my daily dose of antidepressant only regime (xanax as needed), but I feel overwhelmed by a lot more than usual these days. I'm always on edge, have an attitude with everyone for no apparent reason and just want to scream and punch somebody....
I'm pretty good with pretending to be okay on the outside when on the inside i've got a bazillion and one things going on and no focus whatsoever. I'm all over the place, except for where I want to be... I've got to figure out how to fix this and/or at least maintain until I can afford to get to the doc and have my meds re-evaluated. For now... eh, it is what it is.
